Long distance is probably one of the hardest things I've been through. The fact that I'm separated from not only my boyfriend but my best friend. It's hard from spending everyday together to seeing each other twice a month, if even that. It can make things hostile at times which leaves both of us heartbroken and distraught, but we always find our way back...back to the way things should be. When he calls just to say "I love you" or when we laugh at our jokes that no one will ever get. The times when I express everything I'm feeling and he says "I'm always here for you, I love you"...bottom line, I love my boyfriend and nothing or no one will come between us, especially distance. I just got to tough it out.
XxX Olivia Elise
Monday, December 19, 2011
Friday, October 28, 2011
Love After War
"The truth, the lies, the joy, the cries, the lust, the pain, and all that is gained…as the fog of gunfire clears and the rain disappears…I see a sliver of light, soft lips and heart beating against mine. Once again I find…Love after war"
XxX Olivia Elise
XxX Olivia Elise
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Hectic and Broke
So these next 2 weeks are not only going to be hectic but completely wipe out my bank account. Here's why...
Tonight I have work from 4-11 and I already know it's going to be crazy busy because of the Ranger game! Holy moly!
Tomorrow I have to present 2 papers and a how-to speech for my midterms. Wish me luck! Then later that night I have to go back to work from 4-10 and hopefully the Rangers will win the World Series that way I won't have to work another crazy night!
Friday is lobster night at the country club and not only is it our busiest night of the month but super messy and gross with lobster fillings everywhere! Yuck!
Saturday is my moms best friend's wedding which starts at 3 and lasts till the late hours of the night and since my mom is a bridesmaid, I have to be on baby patrol and watch the little ones which will be nothing short of madness because Ava is in her terrible two's and Allie...well she's 4 but somehow is still in her terrible two's.
Sunday, ahhh sunday! Finally a day to relax with no school or work to worry about! I have to find a Princess Jasmine costume to go trick or treating in with my baby sisters (They wanted me to be Jasmine and Anthony to be Alaaddin, but it'll just be me this halloween). This will probably be around $40?
Monday is HALLOWEEN! Yay for fun games and getting butt loads of candy that I don't need! It's so fun to dress up with the babies though and seeing them get so excited! It's fun :)
Tuesday means back to school, finishing up midterms and work! WOMP :(
Wednesday is here! Finally time to pack for my trip to San Antonio and then later go to work obvi.
Thursday, November 3rd, is me and Anthony's 2 year anniversary! Time to rush through school and head on down to San Antonio to celebrate with my love!
Friday, just another day to relax and spend with my sweetheart and get ready for the next day which leads me to....
Saturday! Cherie's Bachelorette Party! She's having it in Austin and we're all staying in a condo on 6th! Since I'll already be in SA i'll just drive down and scoop up my cousin Madison form San Marcos and then party party party all day! This is her last fling before the ring! So glad all my cousins are going to be there! My best friends! That should be a night to remember!
Sunday will most likely be hell driving back to SA. As soon as I get back to Anthony's I'm headed straight for the bed, couch, whatever's closest and comfy and taking a nap! Then later that night I'll go watch Anthony's softball game!
Monday I'll make my way back to the Big D and get ready for another crazy week ahead!
Tuesday and Wednesday, will be consisted of nothing but school and work. Fun...
Thursday is Cherie's rehearsal dinner and the night before her big day! Again, I can't believe the first cousin is getting married. If anyone knows our family, you know it's a big deal. We're all growing up! Weird!
Friday is the big day! Cherie's wedding! Nothing but getting pampered with our hair and makeup appointments and toasting to the bride to be!
Saturday my family and I are taking our annual family pictures. I love these but after a wedding and partying, it might be dreadful.
Sunday funday! A day full of laundry, naps, and football.
So if I don't write a lot in the next few weeks you know why! Hope everyone has a great rest of the week! It's hump day! Almost done!
XxX Olivia Elise
Tonight I have work from 4-11 and I already know it's going to be crazy busy because of the Ranger game! Holy moly!
Tomorrow I have to present 2 papers and a how-to speech for my midterms. Wish me luck! Then later that night I have to go back to work from 4-10 and hopefully the Rangers will win the World Series that way I won't have to work another crazy night!
Friday is lobster night at the country club and not only is it our busiest night of the month but super messy and gross with lobster fillings everywhere! Yuck!
Saturday is my moms best friend's wedding which starts at 3 and lasts till the late hours of the night and since my mom is a bridesmaid, I have to be on baby patrol and watch the little ones which will be nothing short of madness because Ava is in her terrible two's and Allie...well she's 4 but somehow is still in her terrible two's.
Sunday, ahhh sunday! Finally a day to relax with no school or work to worry about! I have to find a Princess Jasmine costume to go trick or treating in with my baby sisters (They wanted me to be Jasmine and Anthony to be Alaaddin, but it'll just be me this halloween). This will probably be around $40?
Monday is HALLOWEEN! Yay for fun games and getting butt loads of candy that I don't need! It's so fun to dress up with the babies though and seeing them get so excited! It's fun :)
Tuesday means back to school, finishing up midterms and work! WOMP :(
Wednesday is here! Finally time to pack for my trip to San Antonio and then later go to work obvi.
Thursday, November 3rd, is me and Anthony's 2 year anniversary! Time to rush through school and head on down to San Antonio to celebrate with my love!
Friday, just another day to relax and spend with my sweetheart and get ready for the next day which leads me to....
Saturday! Cherie's Bachelorette Party! She's having it in Austin and we're all staying in a condo on 6th! Since I'll already be in SA i'll just drive down and scoop up my cousin Madison form San Marcos and then party party party all day! This is her last fling before the ring! So glad all my cousins are going to be there! My best friends! That should be a night to remember!
Sunday will most likely be hell driving back to SA. As soon as I get back to Anthony's I'm headed straight for the bed, couch, whatever's closest and comfy and taking a nap! Then later that night I'll go watch Anthony's softball game!
Monday I'll make my way back to the Big D and get ready for another crazy week ahead!
Tuesday and Wednesday, will be consisted of nothing but school and work. Fun...
Thursday is Cherie's rehearsal dinner and the night before her big day! Again, I can't believe the first cousin is getting married. If anyone knows our family, you know it's a big deal. We're all growing up! Weird!
Friday is the big day! Cherie's wedding! Nothing but getting pampered with our hair and makeup appointments and toasting to the bride to be!
Saturday my family and I are taking our annual family pictures. I love these but after a wedding and partying, it might be dreadful.
Sunday funday! A day full of laundry, naps, and football.
So if I don't write a lot in the next few weeks you know why! Hope everyone has a great rest of the week! It's hump day! Almost done!
XxX Olivia Elise
Better run, better run, outrun my gun
Oh my lanta! Just had one of the best runs in a while. You know, those runs when your stamina is out the roof and you can run miles and miles? Yeah, that was me today! Later I'm going to do another mini workout in my room. I'm so determined right now!
Today for breakfast I ate a small (and when I say small I mean small) bowl of chorizo. Yum! Then for lunch I just had some green tea and fruit (I wasn't that hungry). Then before I head to work tonight I'll have my meal supplement shake for my dinner! They're actually really tasty!
I've been crazy busy with midterms, work, and all this wedding madness that I haven't had any time to workout or run lately. I'm changing that though! I need to get back into my good eating habits! Yay for getting healthy and FIT!
XxX Olivia Elise
Today for breakfast I ate a small (and when I say small I mean small) bowl of chorizo. Yum! Then for lunch I just had some green tea and fruit (I wasn't that hungry). Then before I head to work tonight I'll have my meal supplement shake for my dinner! They're actually really tasty!
I've been crazy busy with midterms, work, and all this wedding madness that I haven't had any time to workout or run lately. I'm changing that though! I need to get back into my good eating habits! Yay for getting healthy and FIT!
XxX Olivia Elise
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
operation get fit
I'm so off an on when it comes to dieting and working out. I need to maintain a steady diet and work out plan. I'm not saying I want to lose like 30 pounds or anything drastic liked that, just wanting to slim down and get fit! I currently weighed myself and I'm at 125 lb.'s. My goal will be to slim down my inner and outer thighs a little and to tone my stomach and legs. Well...that's pretty much everything right? I'm going to try to keep track of what I eat daily and the different workouts I do. So why waste any more time? Let's get started!
Breakfast: 5-6 Ritz crackers (I was in a rush)
Lunch: Meal supplement shake
Workout: Ran 1.5 miles, lunges, and did a set of sit ups(30), followed by some deep stretching
I'll be working during dinner so i'll probably squeeze in a salad if I have time!
I hope I start to see some changes soon!
XxX Olivia Elise
Breakfast: 5-6 Ritz crackers (I was in a rush)
Lunch: Meal supplement shake
Workout: Ran 1.5 miles, lunges, and did a set of sit ups(30), followed by some deep stretching
I'll be working during dinner so i'll probably squeeze in a salad if I have time!
I hope I start to see some changes soon!
XxX Olivia Elise
Monday, October 24, 2011
Oh my it's Monday
Can't believe it's Monday already! This past week has flown by so quick! Here's a recap of this past week...
First off, Anthony came to visit me this past Tuesday! Surprise surprise! He had almost a week and a half off from work so he took his time off to come visit and spend time with me. Awww :) I was beyond excited and was anxious all Tuesday morning! I couldn't concentrate in class and couldn't wait till later that night to see him! As soon as I got off of work I rushed over to see him and did the typical run and jump just like you see in the movies cause we're cheesy like that. Then the rest of the night was dedicated to kicking his ass in Kinect Fitness.
The next morning I woke him up bright and early and begged him to go to the fair with me! Of course after I bribed him with food he gave in and said yes :) We had eaten so much that we only lasted about an hour at the fair and then quickly fell into a food coma. After we rested up a little we went to run some errands before the Ranger game that night! While we were out, he bought me a new Ranger shirt to add to my collection! SCORE! Then on our way home we picked up some WingStop and watched our Rangers play STL! It was a pretty good ending to the night.
Thursday I didn't get to see him much since I had school and work all day but it's okay since he got to spend some time with his friends. Same goes for Friday...damn you Hackberry! Then Saturday I woke up bright and early to go to my cousin Natalie's bridal shower which was absolutely flawless! We had guava and champagne mimosas. Talk about yum! Then followed with traditional cuban food and wine. I was drinking and eating my life away! Later that night I met up with Anthony and my other cousins and we all went to my uncle's house to watch the Rangers unfortunately lose :( But overall was a great day!
Dun dun dun...then comes Sunday! The day Anthony leaves to go back to San Antonio! Wahhhh! :( I always cry like a baby every time he leaves. I act like I'm never going to see him again or something lol! After the rough "see you soon" I went home and took a loooonnngggg much needed nap!
Now i'm completely cleaning out my room and getting rid of the things I don't wear, use, or need anymore! I love cleaning everything out! It relieves my stress and makes me feel a lot better! Later I might go running and go do a little shopping with Andie. Yay and nay for mondays!
XX Olivia Elise
First off, Anthony came to visit me this past Tuesday! Surprise surprise! He had almost a week and a half off from work so he took his time off to come visit and spend time with me. Awww :) I was beyond excited and was anxious all Tuesday morning! I couldn't concentrate in class and couldn't wait till later that night to see him! As soon as I got off of work I rushed over to see him and did the typical run and jump just like you see in the movies cause we're cheesy like that. Then the rest of the night was dedicated to kicking his ass in Kinect Fitness.
The next morning I woke him up bright and early and begged him to go to the fair with me! Of course after I bribed him with food he gave in and said yes :) We had eaten so much that we only lasted about an hour at the fair and then quickly fell into a food coma. After we rested up a little we went to run some errands before the Ranger game that night! While we were out, he bought me a new Ranger shirt to add to my collection! SCORE! Then on our way home we picked up some WingStop and watched our Rangers play STL! It was a pretty good ending to the night.
Thursday I didn't get to see him much since I had school and work all day but it's okay since he got to spend some time with his friends. Same goes for Friday...damn you Hackberry! Then Saturday I woke up bright and early to go to my cousin Natalie's bridal shower which was absolutely flawless! We had guava and champagne mimosas. Talk about yum! Then followed with traditional cuban food and wine. I was drinking and eating my life away! Later that night I met up with Anthony and my other cousins and we all went to my uncle's house to watch the Rangers unfortunately lose :( But overall was a great day!
Dun dun dun...then comes Sunday! The day Anthony leaves to go back to San Antonio! Wahhhh! :( I always cry like a baby every time he leaves. I act like I'm never going to see him again or something lol! After the rough "see you soon" I went home and took a loooonnngggg much needed nap!
Now i'm completely cleaning out my room and getting rid of the things I don't wear, use, or need anymore! I love cleaning everything out! It relieves my stress and makes me feel a lot better! Later I might go running and go do a little shopping with Andie. Yay and nay for mondays!
XX Olivia Elise
Monday, October 17, 2011
When it rains I don't mind being lonely
Seriously Texas, your hormones are out of control! Beautiful weather during the day and then crazy thunderstorms at night? Make up your mind!
Today started out frustrating and annoying but turned out to be a good relaxing day. I was supposed to work one of the biggest tournaments at the country club today which obvi means butt loads of tips which would mean that I could have extra money for Ant's anniversary gift so I was super excited to work it! Get this...I get to the club and the fat ugly mexican bartender from upstairs steals my cart! Apparently my boss forgot he told me to come work and told 4 other people to be there as well. Seriously!? So I try and negotiate with him to take the carts at different times so that way we all get some sort of tip share but of course the dumb ass fat wannabe guido didn't give it up. Let's be real now, those golfers don't wanna see a fat guy pulling up and serving them drinks! So after being there for about 45 minutes, I finally just walked out. What a waste of a morning!
I immediately called Anthony and of course he did anything to cheer me up but I was still feeling down. Shortly after being home alone, my sisters walked in from their gymnastics class and of course they wanna show me all their new skills they learned that day! They are too funny! I need to just video them and post it for you guys to see! They're so entertaining! Later I just took a nap then went running which always makes me feel better. I swear it's the best thing to do to get all the stupid shit off your mind.
As for now, Im in bed, watching my shows, enjoying the thunder and chowing down on some cake balls that are NOT on my diet. I have homework I should start on right now but sleep sounds so appealing I might just set an early alarm and do it in the morning. I hope everyone's had a great day! Until tomorrow...
XO Olivia Elise
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Let's play the catch up game
So I know it's been a while and every time I act like i'm going to get back on track with writing it just does not happen, but i'm going to make it happen starting right NOW!
Let's see what's been going on in my life since I've last updated y'all...well first off let me just say that school, family, the boyfriend and everything else is going well! Doing pretty good in school and leaving off to a university sometime either next summer or fall! I can't wait to finally fully spread my wings and live on my own! I just know that once I leave i'm going to miss the hell out of my parents and especially my baby sisters! What will I do without those little babies!? They brighten up my day always! Thank god for Skype!
Oh Anthony :) This boy is amazing. I am such a lucky girl and I'm super excited that our 2 year anniversary is in 2 weeks! Can't wait to see him and celebrate another exciting year with the love of my life. We've been through so much and are stronger than ever. I definitely got lucky with him. How cool is it to fall in love with your best friend? It's the absolute best! I would def recommend to have a solid friendship with someone before dating. I swear it's what makes our relationship so strong and healthy. I could go on and on about this guy but i'll save save that for another time ;)
Oh and how could I forget!? Cherie's wedding is in less than a month! How crazy! I can't believe the first cousin is getting married. We're all growing up!!! I've been trying to eat super healthy and work out everyday till I pass out so I can look super good in my dress. I don't want to be the frumpy girl walking down the aisle. How embarrassing that would be and not to mention NOT CUTE! We also have Cherie's bridal shower this Saturday at my house and let me just say that my mom has been a cleaning nazi! I hate when we have parties at our house cause there is no resting for anyone! On a brighter note, I'm so happy for Cherie and Cory and hope they have a wonderful life together! This is just the beginning of your journey!
Speaking of Cherie and all of the wedding madness, I have to wake up bright and early to help her with her bridal photo shoot so I better get some shut eye! Until tomorrow my fellow bloggers! GOODNIGHT XOXO
Let's see what's been going on in my life since I've last updated y'all...well first off let me just say that school, family, the boyfriend and everything else is going well! Doing pretty good in school and leaving off to a university sometime either next summer or fall! I can't wait to finally fully spread my wings and live on my own! I just know that once I leave i'm going to miss the hell out of my parents and especially my baby sisters! What will I do without those little babies!? They brighten up my day always! Thank god for Skype!
Oh Anthony :) This boy is amazing. I am such a lucky girl and I'm super excited that our 2 year anniversary is in 2 weeks! Can't wait to see him and celebrate another exciting year with the love of my life. We've been through so much and are stronger than ever. I definitely got lucky with him. How cool is it to fall in love with your best friend? It's the absolute best! I would def recommend to have a solid friendship with someone before dating. I swear it's what makes our relationship so strong and healthy. I could go on and on about this guy but i'll save save that for another time ;)
Oh and how could I forget!? Cherie's wedding is in less than a month! How crazy! I can't believe the first cousin is getting married. We're all growing up!!! I've been trying to eat super healthy and work out everyday till I pass out so I can look super good in my dress. I don't want to be the frumpy girl walking down the aisle. How embarrassing that would be and not to mention NOT CUTE! We also have Cherie's bridal shower this Saturday at my house and let me just say that my mom has been a cleaning nazi! I hate when we have parties at our house cause there is no resting for anyone! On a brighter note, I'm so happy for Cherie and Cory and hope they have a wonderful life together! This is just the beginning of your journey!
Speaking of Cherie and all of the wedding madness, I have to wake up bright and early to help her with her bridal photo shoot so I better get some shut eye! Until tomorrow my fellow bloggers! GOODNIGHT XOXO
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Summaaaa time and the livin's NOT easy
Well I might be a little over dramatic with the title considering I do have it pretty easy living with my parents and getting everything handed to me...well not everything but you get the gist. I guess what I'm getting at is the question I'm asking most at this moment "I THOUGHT THIS WAS SUMMER?!" It seems like all I do now is consume my life with work and school and nothing else! These 7 am classes and dreadfully long days at work not only take up all of my time but cause me to want to do nothing but sleep! All I see on facebook are all of my peers having loads of fun and living their life to the fullest it seems like! Being an "adult" can defintely suck at times. Too many responsbilities and definitely not enough time to be young and have fun!
This ultimately leads me to another thought I've been thinking about lately "WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE?!" It seems like only yesterday I was in high school, cheering at football games, going to parties with my friends, taking road trips and all that, what I'd call now, luxury. My cheerleading days are over, no time to party, and I have limited vacations due to work :( You never realize when you're young how good you have it or how lucky you are to not have to worry about the things we worry about now. I'm now a sophmore in college and I can't believe it! Life moves so unbelieveably fast it often leaves me dumbfounded. It's even a little scary (yet exciting) to think that I'll be graduating college in the next 2-3 years then after that I'll be starting my career, getting married, starting a family, and creating a whole new life for myself.
Maybe all this work and no play will all pay off in the end? Who knows! I've learned that I should take life a day at time. There is no time to get angry or frustrated at the ones you love, no need to rush relationships, and try to enjoy the time left I have as a young woman. My future will unfold itself and who knows what it may bring but all I can say is that I'm so terrified yet excited to see what it has in store for me!
-Olivia Elise
This ultimately leads me to another thought I've been thinking about lately "WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE?!" It seems like only yesterday I was in high school, cheering at football games, going to parties with my friends, taking road trips and all that, what I'd call now, luxury. My cheerleading days are over, no time to party, and I have limited vacations due to work :( You never realize when you're young how good you have it or how lucky you are to not have to worry about the things we worry about now. I'm now a sophmore in college and I can't believe it! Life moves so unbelieveably fast it often leaves me dumbfounded. It's even a little scary (yet exciting) to think that I'll be graduating college in the next 2-3 years then after that I'll be starting my career, getting married, starting a family, and creating a whole new life for myself.
Maybe all this work and no play will all pay off in the end? Who knows! I've learned that I should take life a day at time. There is no time to get angry or frustrated at the ones you love, no need to rush relationships, and try to enjoy the time left I have as a young woman. My future will unfold itself and who knows what it may bring but all I can say is that I'm so terrified yet excited to see what it has in store for me!
-Olivia Elise
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Losing yourself in love
Relationships are tough. No one ever said that they were easy. No one ever said that things would be perfect and if you honestly believe that they will be, then you have a rude awakening headed your way. I'm not saying that a relationship can't feel perfect or that you'll never be head over heels in love forever, but things like this take time, patience, and most of all personal effort from both people in the relationship.
I fell in love. Deep in love. No it wasn't puppy love or whatever you want to call it. I'm still deep in love but I'm at the, what it feels like, rock bottom part of the relationship. Everyone must have these times right? The time where you feel like you're not meeting eye to eye and the littlest things can set you off? I'm genuinely a nice girl with established morals and values. I don't let petty things get the best of me...
I've found myself now doing the complete opposite. I get impatient and frustrated with the dumbest things. When I say dumb I mean DUMB. I've become bitter and selfish. Who is this girl? This is NOT Olivia. I don't like this girl that I've become. With all of the constant arguing and bickering back and forth I can honestly say that I'm losing my best friend and the love of my life.
I've been trying everything I can possibly do to fix this...I don't like being this way. Trust me, I don't. I catch my self rolling my eyes, or getting in a bad mood over something not worth it almost immediately after I do it. I try and apologize over and over, but sorry starts to lose it's meaning after it's said a thousand times. I love him so much and I want to go back to being the girl he fell in love with. The nice girl who always had a smile on her face. The girl who would enjoy every single second she was with him...
Although I do know that I need to fix myself, I ultimately need help from the one I love. I need for him to understand that I am trying to change and be different. I need for him to give me the chance to show him that I can do this. A chance to prove myself and show him that I'm not this girl and that I can make him happy like I once did. Let's put the past behind us and start a new beginning. I know we can do this. I need for him to stop holding grudges over my head and live for today. It's not healthy for him to throw all my mistakes in my face whenever he's upset with me. It's just not fair. It's not right when you verbally abuse me either. It seems like every time I do something to piss you off, you tear me down with words. That's not the old you either. That's not the guy I fell in love with. It's not always just me, believe it or not. It takes two to tango. I am willing to man up to my problems and swallow my pride to make things right. (Not saying that you don't)...I'm young, and I make mistakes. Everyone does...but we need these mistakes to learn from and put towards our future.
I need to find the old Olivia. I don't like who I've become and I don't like the way I've treated him. I can honestly say that's not me. That's not the person I really am. For now, I'm just going to have to work on myself and get back to the way I used to be. I've completely lost myself, and that's not fair to him. If it's meant to be, we'll find our way to each other again. If not, then I know now that I can't ever let myself get like this. I won't let myself get like this.
-Olivia Elise
I fell in love. Deep in love. No it wasn't puppy love or whatever you want to call it. I'm still deep in love but I'm at the, what it feels like, rock bottom part of the relationship. Everyone must have these times right? The time where you feel like you're not meeting eye to eye and the littlest things can set you off? I'm genuinely a nice girl with established morals and values. I don't let petty things get the best of me...
I've found myself now doing the complete opposite. I get impatient and frustrated with the dumbest things. When I say dumb I mean DUMB. I've become bitter and selfish. Who is this girl? This is NOT Olivia. I don't like this girl that I've become. With all of the constant arguing and bickering back and forth I can honestly say that I'm losing my best friend and the love of my life.
I've been trying everything I can possibly do to fix this...I don't like being this way. Trust me, I don't. I catch my self rolling my eyes, or getting in a bad mood over something not worth it almost immediately after I do it. I try and apologize over and over, but sorry starts to lose it's meaning after it's said a thousand times. I love him so much and I want to go back to being the girl he fell in love with. The nice girl who always had a smile on her face. The girl who would enjoy every single second she was with him...
Although I do know that I need to fix myself, I ultimately need help from the one I love. I need for him to understand that I am trying to change and be different. I need for him to give me the chance to show him that I can do this. A chance to prove myself and show him that I'm not this girl and that I can make him happy like I once did. Let's put the past behind us and start a new beginning. I know we can do this. I need for him to stop holding grudges over my head and live for today. It's not healthy for him to throw all my mistakes in my face whenever he's upset with me. It's just not fair. It's not right when you verbally abuse me either. It seems like every time I do something to piss you off, you tear me down with words. That's not the old you either. That's not the guy I fell in love with. It's not always just me, believe it or not. It takes two to tango. I am willing to man up to my problems and swallow my pride to make things right. (Not saying that you don't)...I'm young, and I make mistakes. Everyone does...but we need these mistakes to learn from and put towards our future.
I need to find the old Olivia. I don't like who I've become and I don't like the way I've treated him. I can honestly say that's not me. That's not the person I really am. For now, I'm just going to have to work on myself and get back to the way I used to be. I've completely lost myself, and that's not fair to him. If it's meant to be, we'll find our way to each other again. If not, then I know now that I can't ever let myself get like this. I won't let myself get like this.
-Olivia Elise
Monday, May 23, 2011
Hardest goodbye
I just got done saying goodbye to Anthony. This has been by far the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I just wanted to hug him and never let go. My best friend is leaving me and I feel so clueless and don't know what to do without him. I definitely made sure those last few moments with him were the best I could make them. Even though San Antonio is not too far away, it feels as if he's moving to another state! I am just being the biggest baby right now and can not stop balling my eyes out. If you only knew how close I am with him and his family then you would know how much this is effecting me. I am at a loss for words right now....I'm going to miss him so much!
-Olivia Elise
-Olivia Elise
Friday, May 20, 2011
Thursday, May 19, 2011
You know those "Relationship101" quote people you can follow on twitter? Well I absolutely love them! Here are a few that I relate to right at this moment...
-Everyone comes into your life for a reason; some good, some bad. They shape, form, and break us. But in the end they make us who we are.
-When two peple are meant for each other, no time is too long, no distance is too far, and no one can ever tear them apart. (my favorite)
-Never Expect. Never Assume. Never ask. Never demand. Just let it be, if it's meant to be, it will happen.
-NEVER give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about.
-I knew I could do better for myself...that's when I found you.
-I can talk to hundreds of people in one day but none of them compare to the smile you can give me in one minute.
-When you truly care for someone, their mistakes never change your feelings because it's the mind that gets angry but the heart still cares.
-Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness. Laugh when you can, apolgize when you should, and let go of what you can't change.
-Meeting youwas fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling love with you was beyond my control.
-Everyone comes into your life for a reason; some good, some bad. They shape, form, and break us. But in the end they make us who we are.
-When two peple are meant for each other, no time is too long, no distance is too far, and no one can ever tear them apart. (my favorite)
-Never Expect. Never Assume. Never ask. Never demand. Just let it be, if it's meant to be, it will happen.
-NEVER give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about.
-I knew I could do better for myself...that's when I found you.
-I can talk to hundreds of people in one day but none of them compare to the smile you can give me in one minute.
-When you truly care for someone, their mistakes never change your feelings because it's the mind that gets angry but the heart still cares.
-Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness. Laugh when you can, apolgize when you should, and let go of what you can't change.
-Meeting youwas fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling love with you was beyond my control.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
180 degrees
There are so many emotions that have happened in just the last 48 hours. Happy, angry, sad...things have definitely gone from cloud nine to rock bottom unbelievably fast. I honestly had no clue how to handle all of this. I went and still am in a deep depression. I've lost my soul mate and my best friend. I feel like dying right now! I'm feeling so down it's crazy! I feel like I do everything wrong and right when I start to get things under control and perfect...BAM! it's all gone...you have no idea how worthless I feel. I've never been so hard on myself. I'm seriously beating myself up for everything. I had the best thing I could ever want or need. I wish I could be given the chance to start fresh and make things right...make things better. I am a different person! I am not the person he's portraying me to be. I love him so much...words can't even describe the love I have for this boy. I would literally do ANYTHING for him. I know we are meant to be together and I will try with all that I have to make sure that we are together again! I love him seriously way too much to just let him go. I will NOT let him go! I can't sleep, or eat until I'm in his arms again. I miss every single thing about him. I feel like a stupid girl, being so dramatic about everything...but I honestly feel like giving up everything. With him not wanting anything to do with me has really discouraged me and unmotivated me to do anything...all that I ask is to have another chance...doesn't everyone deserve a second chance...a chance to prove themselves...a chance to make things right? I'm telling you, I would do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING for that second chance! My love that I have for him is so incredibly real! I just beg on my shameful knees that he'll give me that chance. I promise I'll make him that happiest man ever....I love him :(
Lyrical Heartbreak
A few lyrics thats I'm relating to right now....
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying im sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom is nothing but missing you
Wishing Ihad realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December turn around and make it all right.
Taylor Swift- Back to December
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay
I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces.
The Script- Breakeven
I'll be waiting for you when you're ready to love me again
I'll put my hands up, I'll do everything different, I'll be better to you
I'll be waiting for you when you're ready to love me again
I'll put my hands up, I'll be somebody different, I'll be better to you
Adele-I'll be waiting
Even when the sky comes falling, even when the sun don't shine
I got faith in you and I,
So put your pretty little hand in mine
Even when we're down to the wire babe
Even when it's do or die
You can do it baby simple and plain
Cause this love is a sure thing
Miguel-Sure Thing
We say that time is meant to heal bit it still hurts inside
I wish that non of this was real cause we're so far behind
You've been all alone needing me by your side
But it's not too late, maybe we just needed time
Can we try to let it go? If we don't then we'll never know
I try to break through but you know that it's up to you
Colbie Callait- Break Through
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken.
What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say, and watching you walk away.
Rascal Flatts- What Hurts The Most
:(
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying im sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom is nothing but missing you
Wishing Ihad realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December turn around and make it all right.
Taylor Swift- Back to December
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay
I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces.
The Script- Breakeven
I'll be waiting for you when you're ready to love me again
I'll put my hands up, I'll do everything different, I'll be better to you
I'll be waiting for you when you're ready to love me again
I'll put my hands up, I'll be somebody different, I'll be better to you
Adele-I'll be waiting
Even when the sky comes falling, even when the sun don't shine
I got faith in you and I,
So put your pretty little hand in mine
Even when we're down to the wire babe
Even when it's do or die
You can do it baby simple and plain
Cause this love is a sure thing
Miguel-Sure Thing
We say that time is meant to heal bit it still hurts inside
I wish that non of this was real cause we're so far behind
You've been all alone needing me by your side
But it's not too late, maybe we just needed time
Can we try to let it go? If we don't then we'll never know
I try to break through but you know that it's up to you
Colbie Callait- Break Through
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken.
What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say, and watching you walk away.
Rascal Flatts- What Hurts The Most
:(
Monday, May 16, 2011
Cover
Taylor and I just covered this song! So goooood haha I'll have our version up sooon!
-Olivia Elise
-Olivia Elise
Friday, May 13, 2011
Long time, no blog!
Heyyyy everyone! I've been taking a little break with blogging due to excessive studying and catching up on my sleep. I swear school drains the life outta me! Now that finals are over and summer has arrived I think it's time for me to get back on track with my blogging. I have been so busy lately and I can't say I'm complaining! Between work, school, sleep and my social life I've been non stop for the past month! So much has been going through my mind and being busy defnitely allows me to not be as stressed as I'd usually be which is great! On another note, Anthony moves to San Antonio in less than a week! Ahhh! The time is flying by and it honestly hasn't hit me until right now! What will I do without my best friend?! It would be a good thing if I didn't have summer school or a hectic work schedule cause then I could go down there whenever I wanted. I know that I'll still find time to see him as he'll do the same and come down here but it'll definitely be a lot more difficult. Besides that, I know that things will be just fine and I honestly think that this will bring us a lot closer.
I have tons more to talk about but I have to start getting ready for work -_- So for now, to be continued....
-Olivia Elise
I have tons more to talk about but I have to start getting ready for work -_- So for now, to be continued....
-Olivia Elise
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Drifting apart
Things are NOT the same anymore and it's slowly tearing me down. I don't know what to do with myself. You were my best friend. I feel like I can't even tell you anything anymore without you getting mad or defensive. Your moving date gets closer and closer and all that keeps going through my mind is the fact that we will be even more distant than we are now. My heart is literally breaking and I dont know if it can be put back together if I dont have you. I've been trying my best to do absolutely anything and everything to be with you again and I just keep getting shut down! I think I've come to the conclusion to just let things be and to not talk to you anymore. It's too hard to just "be friends"...it's not possible...at least not for me. Every time we hang out as "friends" it just brings more feelings and I just set myself up for heartbreak. I hate feeling this way. This is the worst feeling ever. Something's gotta change.
Monday, April 18, 2011
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Forget it
So in February I started the 30 Day Photo Challenge... Seriously that just takes up too much space on here and that's not what I really started this blog for...I think I'm going to try and focus more on just writing. BUT I am getting a tumblr to put all of the tumblr pictures and other random stuff I find and love. I might come back and finish that photo challenge someday but not anytime soon.
-Olivia Elise
-Olivia Elise
Monday, March 21, 2011
What is up with me!?
Slacking is definitely an understatement when it comes to me keeping up with writing. This will change ASAP. On another note, how was everyones spring break? I did a whole lot of NOTHING but I didn't mind it at all. I got some time to just relax for once and just chill out with friends and family.
Today was the day back to school after this long, relaxing, perfect week...can you say HELL!? It was a pain in the ass to get up this morning. Pure torture I tell ya! But I'm starting my diet and workout plan again since I cheated over spring break :( I just got done running 2 1/2 miles and I feel great. It's always so hard to get up and go but once it's all said and done it's really refreshing. I'm definitely determined to tone up and get the body I want for summer!
Today was the day back to school after this long, relaxing, perfect week...can you say HELL!? It was a pain in the ass to get up this morning. Pure torture I tell ya! But I'm starting my diet and workout plan again since I cheated over spring break :( I just got done running 2 1/2 miles and I feel great. It's always so hard to get up and go but once it's all said and done it's really refreshing. I'm definitely determined to tone up and get the body I want for summer!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Spring break, where are you?
This week feels like it's going by so dreadfully slow. Not to mention we have midterms this week. UGHHH! Spring break couldnt feel more far away. So I've had plans to maybe go to Florida for spring break with Anthony but with school and work taking over my life I haven't had time to fully plan the trip :( I know Florida will for sure be happening either before or a little after summer! For now I'm may be thinking about just going to San Antonio. I know, doesnt sound too fun but Anthony and I have family down there and when we all hang out that's already tons of fun in itself! And if it's warm enough we could probably even drive down to San Marcos and float the river? Who knows! There aren't any plans for sure yet, but hopefully we can go somewhere! All my friends are going to Padre or somewhere cool for spring break and frankly I'm just too broke to go anywhere "cool". I should just save up for next years spring break and go somewhere fun!
Good luck on midterms everyone and I hope all of you have a crazy/safe spring break!
-Olivia Elise
Good luck on midterms everyone and I hope all of you have a crazy/safe spring break!
-Olivia Elise
Monday, March 7, 2011
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
This one's a toughie only cause I love music and have so many favorites. Here's a few...
Sara Bareilles, John Mayer, Katy Perry, Incubus, Robin Thicke, and Drake
Friday, March 4, 2011
Mardi Gras 2011
So after almost a full week of thinking I lost my camera, I finally found it! So here are some pictures from mardi gras!
-Olivia Elise
Slacking
So it's been like what a week or so since I've last blogged? NOT OKAY! I've just been so busy with school and work. It's seriously taking over my life! I basically kissed my social life GOODBYE but I'm very proud of myself for staying focused and on point. I feel so overwhelmed with midterms quickly approaching and the stress of project presentations on my mind. I know it's all worth it though...I just have to maintain the goals and positive thoughts of my future. I also need to work hard to get accepted to a university this next year! I know I can do it though! Piece of cake if you ask me :)
Hopefully this next week goes by fast because SPRING BREAK is on it's way! What are you doing for spring break? :)
-Olivia Elise
Hopefully this next week goes by fast because SPRING BREAK is on it's way! What are you doing for spring break? :)
-Olivia Elise
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with
This one's a hard one...I'll come back to it haahahahaahaha
Monday, February 21, 2011
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
& this boy of course! Not only has he been the best boyfriend for the past year, but he's been the best friend for the past 4. He's gotten me through some pretty tough times and he's still by my side.
Friday, February 18, 2011
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh
So in this case it's not so much the picture, but more of the comment my grandma left...It may not be that funny when you read it but if you know my grandma then you'll think it's funny hahaha
My grandma is Corina Williams...
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item
The heart ring is my promise ring from Ant and the other from my mom. If you know me then you know that I never take these two off.
-Olivia Elise
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory
GRADUATION!
Graduation day/night was the best! I was so proud and couldn't wait for the party waiting for me! My cousin Wilson and I graduated at the same time from the same school so needless to say, we had a HUGE party. One of the best nights ever!
Graduation day/night was the best! I was so proud and couldn't wait for the party waiting for me! My cousin Wilson and I graduated at the same time from the same school so needless to say, we had a HUGE party. One of the best nights ever!
-Olivia Elise
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Day 04 - A picture of your night
Anthony and I simply just cuddling and watching our shows! Love days/nights like these!
-Olivia Elise
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Since I don't just have one favorite show I'll just show some of my favs...
The Hills
Bethenney's Getting Married
The Real Housewives of Beverley Hills
Kourtney & Kim Take New York
-Olivia Elise
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
Madison! I love this girl SO much! She's been the best cousin/sister/bestfriend ever since I was born! This girl has done so much for me. We've had crazy, fun times together and I swear we are the same person! She's stuck by my side through all of the tough times when I really needed someone. I know I can always count on her and that she'll always be there. It's hard now that we're apart and she's in San Marcos and I'm at home but we'll be roomies sooooon! Love you Maddie! Thanks for always being there for me when others weren't.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Bridesmaid Proposal
Tonight my cousin Cherie had a little post valentines day party with the girls...little did we know it was a bridesmaids party and she gave a little speech and asked each and every one of us if we would be her bridesmaids. It was too cute! Of course I said yes! I'm so excited for her and her wedding! It's going to be a great experience and so much fun!
(We're missing Crystal, Angelee, and Madison...I love my cousins!)
-Olivia Elise
Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts
1. I'm very family oriented and my family means everything to me.
2. My best friends are my cousins and boyfriend and I'm perfectly fine with that.
3. I plan to start my own PR firm or event planning business after college.
4. I truly believe love can conquer anything and everything...which is why I love LOVE <3
5. I am a very trusting and forgiving person which could be a bad or good thing.
6. Music is my therapy and when I say I love all types of music I really mean it!
7. I am a very outspoken/outgoing person and I love meeting new people.
8. I love musicals/plays and have been in a few productions.
9. Cosmopolitan is my bible! It gives you tips about everythinggg!
10. For the most part, I'm an independent gal with a good head on my shoulders.
30 day PHOTO challenge
So I know I already did a 30 day blog challenge when I first started but now that I'm finished with that one, why not do another? This one is really supposed to be done on Facebook but I rather just do it here...let's see how long this one takes me haha ;)
Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Day 04 - A picture of your night
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
Day 12 - A picture of something you love
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity
Day 19 - A picture and a letter
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change
Day 25 - A picture of your day
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss
Day 31 - A picture of yourself
-Olivia Elise
Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Day 04 - A picture of your night
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
Day 12 - A picture of something you love
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity
Day 19 - A picture and a letter
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change
Day 25 - A picture of your day
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss
Day 31 - A picture of yourself
-Olivia Elise
Love Day
Yesterday was Valentines Day and it was pretty much perfect thanks to Anthony! He took me out to one of my favorite restaurants and then we went to our spot and just talked and reminisced about this past year together. So simple yet so perfect. He bought me flowers, but not the typical roses which I loved! He also got me season 1 of 'Bethenny's Getting Married' which is one of my favorite shows! I guess he does pay attention ;) I'd say he did a pretty good job! Even though a night like that happens often, it was still so special. I'm a very lucky girl to have such an amazing guy.
-Olivia Elise
-Olivia Elise
Thursday, February 10, 2011
God gave me YOU
As Valentines Day creeps up, I've been thinking about how much I love Anthony and how much he's made an impact on my life. This boy has saved me and stuck by my side when I was at one of the lowest points in my life. He's the most understanding, loving, and amazing man ever. To say he's amazing is a true understatement. I know God has chosen for him and I to be together. He brings out all of the good in me and makes me such a better person. When I'm down he picks me up and knows every right thing to do. We are perfect for each other and I've never thought this about anyone. Yes, we're young but I have faith in our relationship and I know it will just grow and we will be in love no matter what. Nothing or no one will ever bring us down! Okay okay, enough of the bragging haha. I just know I have a really great thing going on and I will cherish it forever. I love you Anthony
-Olivia Elise
-Olivia Elise
Monday, February 7, 2011
Autotune at it's finest!
So my cousin Taylor and I were bored and decided to make a song on garage band on his Mac. We covered the song Higher by Taio Cruz. We had so much fun making this and it only took us an hour and a half! Might I say this was pretty darn good for someone who can't sing worth crap(ME)! We also did Rocketeer by Far East Movement yesterday but i'll post that one up later. Hope you like it!
-Olivia Elise
PS. Don't you just LOVE the picture? hahaha
-Olivia Elise
PS. Don't you just LOVE the picture? hahaha
Sunday, February 6, 2011
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